[ID: two black and white chalk pastel drawings in a sketchbook. they depict an abstracted figure’s head, but instead of a face there is only scribbles and scratch marks. the first drawing also has two hands reaching up towards the figure’s face, partially obscuring it. End ID]
[ID image 1: a cropped baroque painting of Jesus on the cross. only his torso and arms are visible, with his head hanging low. there’s a dramatic lighting on him. the background is nearly pitch black. and there are delicate streams of blood dripping down his head, hands, and side.
image 2: text reading, “You can take off your skin in the cannibal glow. Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands. Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo”.
image 3: an extremely cropped francis bacon oil painting depicting an abstract blood stain. it’s formed of loose strokes of dark red paint over a yellowed and dull background. there is a light blue wash dripping down the canvas, and smudges of white paint as highlights on the blood. End ID]
Alonso Cano’s Crucifixions (1638) / The Sharpest Lives (2006) / Blood on Pavement (1988)
[ID: image 4: a cropped version of gentileschi‘s “judith slaying holofernes”. what’s visible is a baroque painting of two women holding down a struggling third figure. the woman in the front looks serious and is holding the base of some kind of knife or sword. blood is spraying upwards from where the third figure’s head would be off-screen.
image 5: text reading, “The blood on my hands covered the holes”.
image 6: a cropped photograph of a city sidewalk. in the center is what
appears to be a large blood stain with some kind of texture to it.
walking past uncaring are two pairs of legs. one figure is in tan pants and one
in a long dress.
image 7: text reading, “Jesus. …Please take my hands, Judas. Please. Judas. Where are they?”
image 8: a screenshot of a stage show. a figure in the center, jesus, has his
arms spread widely. there are then at least six more figures bowing
their heads around him with their arms raised, framing his body with a
sea of hands. all the figures, including jesus, are wearing black
leather jackets. End ID]
Judith Slaying Holofernes (1613) / Empire (2013) / Moffitt Building Piece (1973) / The Last Days of Judas Iscariot (2005) / Jesus Christ Superstar; Swedish Arena Tour (2014)
[ID: a collage of photos, oil paint, pencil drawings, and tape. it depicts 6 hands and arms reaching upwards toward many paper origami cranes. this is against a dark background. End ID]
men dont have flat chests irl unless theyve had srugery and most dont sojust be respectful and use your brain and draw men with fat large boobies all the time.
obviously the entirety of T.ERF ideology is based on lies, falsehoods and (self-)deception but there’s this one particular thing T.ERFs spread online that I find like, so laughably false and I think any trans person going through medical transition would too… the conspiratorial idea that pharma companies are like, trying to generate gender dysphoria and make more trans people to sell more hormones, and are “peddling” their drugs to trans people.
like… okay, just imagine you’re me. I open my generic brand CPA and look at the insert. All of the information is mostly relevant to its usage in prostate cancer, with a couple of notes about “female hirsutism”. There is no mention of its use in trans hrt. I have to cut the pill into quarters and take that only once every few days because the lowest dosage available is 50mg, which is excessively high in most cases for transfeminine hormone therapy.
Then I open my Estradiol Valerate pills. The insert describes extensively the possible risks and effects for postmenopausal cis women. Again, nothing transition related. I take these thrice daily, sublingually. The pills aren’t designed to be taken this way and it takes a while for it to be fully dissolved. Despite sublingual/buccal administration being quite common among transfems, often suggested by clinics/doctors, and being the subject of studies testing and confirming the efficacy of this route of administration, there has still never been an estradiol product marketed that was designed to be taken this way.
My “lived reality” contradicts this absurd paranoid theory, to an almost comedic level. Pharma companies really don’t care about trans people. We’re irrelevant to them, and make up an insignificant proportion of the user-base of any given drug. Practically all drugs used in HRT are beyond patent protection, too, making any efforts by a particular pharma company to promote its use futile and not profitable.
Yeah, to corroborate this from a brazilian perspective, I have used 7 different estradiol products in the roughly three years since starting hrt (because they keep going out of stock) and not a single one of them mentioned anything about gender dysphoria or trans people, or even gave information that might be pertinent to people who are not cafab. The doctors themselves are also dangerously clueless about this stuff, as both the private endocrinologist I consulted and the national healthcare system in my country prescribe Diane 35, a birth control pill, to trans women, despite it being far less effective than e-valerate or bioidentical e. The ONLY way to obtain HRT marketed for trans women is from trans women themselves.
Like literally the first doc I got script from was pretty much like I’m not exactly sure what I’m doing here but we’ll figure it out.
[ID: a screenshot of satan from the anime “amon: the apocalypse of devilman”. his back is turned, he’s nude, and he has many feathered wings on his back. End ID]
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